Dear readers,

Initially, the thought of writing on this blog and posting on my birthday made me quite excited. I was going to routinely apologize for staying away for so long and ask that you people forgive me but honestly I’m way past that. That’s all I ever come here to write anyway.

Now playing: Senami’s “In my room” playlist.

I know I’m not the only one that gets less excited about my birthday with each passing year. I used to look forward to my birthday till I turned twenty, the excitement started to die down from that age. This year, I had hoped that I would throw a little party with my friends seeing that I had my own apartment and I would be playing host. Guess who’s sitting on the edge of the bed writing a blog post on her laptop five hours to her birthday?

if you say me, then you’re definitely correct.

I got my first birthday present two days to my birthday. It was my father who had paid me a surprise visit standing on the other side of my room telling me how disappointed he was because I had chosen to go rogue. In context, going rogue is not going back to my father’s house in Epe after school and renting an apartment of my own because no man would ever be interested in a lady that doesn’t stay with her parents. In 2020. Oddly, I felt good knowing that I had disappointed a parent because it was my first time being told that he was disappointed in me. I wasn’t so much of the star child he had grown to raise and that made me feel good.

The past one year of my life has been gone from dramatic to extremely dramatic and back to dramatic. I remember crying outside my department after my supervisor had said she didn’t remember approving the topic I had chosen. I was in chapter three and frustrated with life, that was the plug that needed to be pulled for my tears to spill and now that I think about it, I should have held those tears till I got home.

I battled with extreme sadness for months. You know the kind of sadness where its evident that something or a lot of things were wrong with you? I woke up everyday wanting to stay in bed all day and cry myself back to sleep but I couldn’t because the friends I have would never let me. I got quite addicted to sadness and tears so much that I started looking for reasons to be sad so I would listen to sad music and cry. In between sad songs and tears, I would get dms from people talking about how sad and depressed they were and I would pause my sadness and tears to help others through theirs and resume after I was sure that they were fine. It felt like madness but life could get overwhelming at times and you would wish with everything in you that you could stop being an adult. This went on till March 2020, I stopped because my eyes were beginning to hurt too much from crying. I had to bring myself out of the pit of sadness I kept digging with the help of my beautiful friends.

Happy birthday osas
wall art by peniel art

Its amazing how I played pretend online, posting videos of me ranting and playing around then switching up as soon as the camera was off my face. There’s a whole lot going down behind the scenes and I really hope some of you are realizing this now. Anyway, I haven’t visited that habit in a while and I don’t have plans to, anytime soon.

Anyway, today (because by the time you’ll be reading this post, it will be May 1st) I turn twenty two knowing that I have successfully gotten my parent to tell me to my face how irresponsible I have become and how disappointed he is in me, if he reads this, best believe that I would be shipped to Edo state to be delivered of this truancy.

I need to stop typing now, I’ve missed this so much and I’ll be back after my birthday to drop another blog post.

Thank you guys for sticking with me, don’t forget to subscribe to my blog.

Happy Birthday Osas
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Happy birthday Irianele Virtuous Oselumese, you’re amazing.

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62 Comments

  1. Omowonuola Joseph April 30, 2020 at 11:14 pm

    I’ve missed your blog Osas.

    I can relate so much to the sadness part your strength is ….. Happy birthday Osalumese

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  2. Omotolasharon April 30, 2020 at 11:15 pm

    We love you osas.. thanks for being you

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  3. Oluwatosin April 30, 2020 at 11:16 pm

    Happy birthday Osas,you are indeed amazing ✨

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  4. Ayisat April 30, 2020 at 11:18 pm

    Happy Birthday Osas. You’re amazing!

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  5. Ajikobi Esther April 30, 2020 at 11:18 pm

    Happy birthday Osas❤

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  6. Kintan April 30, 2020 at 11:18 pm

    Osas, you’re a gem. I’ve admired you for a long time and I’d still say you’re doing amazing. I’m sorry you went through a bad phase.

    Happy Birthday, I’d remember to pray for you.

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  7. Ruona Asak April 30, 2020 at 11:23 pm

    Happy Birthday, Osas. You’re strong and I love you.

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  8. Faith April 30, 2020 at 11:24 pm

    Happy birthday osas

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  9. Bisi April 30, 2020 at 11:24 pm

    Happy birthday Osas

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  10. Lani April 30, 2020 at 11:31 pm

    Happy birthday Osas.

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  11. Brownie Vocal April 30, 2020 at 11:33 pm

    Happy Birthday, Queen. I totally understand the sad part. The prayer is that we’ll be fine.

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  12. Nnenna April 30, 2020 at 11:35 pm

    Happy birthday to you you’re amazing

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  13. Tanto Ekundayo April 30, 2020 at 11:39 pm

    Happy birthday Osas!❤️

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  14. Omolara April 30, 2020 at 11:44 pm

    You are amazing❤. Happy Birthday

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  15. Olagunju Toluwalope April 30, 2020 at 11:46 pm

    Happy birthday Osas!
    For the remaining part that’s left to heal, I pray God turns it into joy♥️

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  16. Fishiflyfishi April 30, 2020 at 11:54 pm

    Happy birthday Osas…. TBH I hate bloggers that write long stuff but yours is exceptional …I love the way you write in summary….have a beautiful year ….cheers️

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  17. Simeon April 30, 2020 at 11:54 pm

    Happy birthday osas….we love you
    And you should know things gonna get better

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  18. Kayla May 1, 2020 at 12:01 am

    Happy birthday osas.. look forward to seeing you write everytime

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  19. Kyrah May 1, 2020 at 12:02 am

    Happy birthday Osas❤️❤️❤️❤️.. I feel in love with you the first day I saw your post on Instagram few months back… I’m so sorry you went through this my darling… For all your sorrows will end today… I pray that God will grant all your heart desires and always make you happy for me

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  20. Annie May 1, 2020 at 12:11 am

    Happy birthday virtuous keep shining like a star that you are❤

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  21. Madamidola Rafiat Olamide May 1, 2020 at 12:35 am

    I can only say that you don’t realise how strong you’re until being strong is the only option you’ve got and you Osas aren’t called a King for nothing plus you’re blessed with amazing friends here’s me saying that it’s okay to not be okay but plis take your time and remember that you’re one of the strongest people in the world and every tough phase shall passhapppyyyyy twenty fine years old Osas❤❤

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  22. Moji Delano May 1, 2020 at 12:40 am

    Happy birthday Osas.
    Glad you were able to pull through the dark hole.
    From here on it can only get better.
    Have a good one.❤️

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  23. Kasim jarinat Motunrayo May 1, 2020 at 12:46 am

    I love you osas, keep being amazing ❤️

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  24. Dammy May 1, 2020 at 12:47 am

    Happy Birthday Osas! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us

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  25. Comfort May 1, 2020 at 12:54 am

    Happy birthday Osas

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  26. Odedokun Love May 1, 2020 at 1:24 am

    Happy birthday Queen

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  27. Marsh May 1, 2020 at 3:03 am

    Happy Birthday Boss. We Move…..

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  28. Titilope May 1, 2020 at 3:35 am

    The fact that you bounced back screams strength!
    I relate with you on “playing pretend” just to hide emotions and help others.
    You’ve been a source of inspiration and I’m glad you’re back.
    Happy Birthday dear ❤

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  29. Titilope May 1, 2020 at 4:59 am

    Happy birthday Queen so sorry you had to go through that

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  30. Ope May 1, 2020 at 5:10 am

    Happy birthday beautiful ❤️
    More blessings

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  31. Abiola May 1, 2020 at 5:50 am

    happy birthday Osas. you’re strong

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  32. Doyin May 1, 2020 at 6:44 am

    Happy birthday Osas

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  33. Joy Eseyin May 1, 2020 at 6:59 am

    You see that sadness, that’s what we get from Adulthood and honestly it doesn’t get better, but we’re stronger and that’s how we’ll survive.
    You’re a King Osas and you have lots of people looking up to you. Let that thought keep you going.
    Thank you for blogging again. We’ve missed you.
    And happy birthday

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  34. Courage May 1, 2020 at 7:09 am

    Osas!!!!! You’re definitely a gem,to think you had loads of trouble of your own but you still came through for me the way you did. I could tear up rn. I pray God comes through for you in the toughest times.
    You’re the most amazing and most beautiful. I pray God grants you joy that never ends. May this year be as beautiful as you mama. Happy birthday Osas,I love you so much!

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  35. Chidinma Ibemere May 1, 2020 at 7:38 am

    Happy Birthday Osas!! Glad you are happier. Wishing you a beautiful life ahead

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  36. Vanessa May 1, 2020 at 8:35 am

    Happy birthday osas God blessings

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  37. Bamidele Eronmosele May 1, 2020 at 8:38 am

    Happy birthday dear. I wish u happiness

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  38. Dar_h_mie May 1, 2020 at 9:39 am

    Happy birthday Osa’s ❤️❤️

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  39. Zainab May 1, 2020 at 9:40 am

    Happy Birthday Osas.

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    1. Osas - Site Author May 1, 2020 at 10:58 am

      Thank you sister

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  40. Feyiii May 1, 2020 at 9:44 am

    Happy birthday osasss you’re indeed amazing! I want you to always remember that God loves you and no matter what you go through His steadfast love will never seize in your life

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    1. Osas - Site Author May 1, 2020 at 10:58 am

      Amen. Thank you so much Feyi

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  41. Opeoluwa May 1, 2020 at 9:51 am

    Happy birthday osas

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    1. Osas - Site Author May 1, 2020 at 10:57 am

      Thank you Ope

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  42. Praise May 1, 2020 at 10:07 am

    Happy birthday osas❤️
    I love you.
    This is me telling you your validation comes only from God
    Don’t let anyone or anything steal your Joy
    Stay blessed boo❤️❤️

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    1. Osas - Site Author May 1, 2020 at 10:57 am

      Thank you Praise, this means alot

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  43. Kine May 1, 2020 at 10:32 am

    Happy birthday King, I love you very much and you’re gone prove ‘em wrong HARD. ❤️

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    1. Osas - Site Author May 1, 2020 at 10:54 am

      My love, thank you so much. Never trading you for anything

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  44. Iyanuoluwa May 1, 2020 at 10:46 am

    Happy birthday Osas , you’re beautiful and you’re such a fighter. Such a beauty ! You’re writing skills are too notch

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    1. Osas - Site Author May 1, 2020 at 10:53 am

      Thank you so much Iyanu, I really appreciate this.

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      1. Iyanuoluwa May 1, 2020 at 11:24 am

        Auto correct can make one run mad but I’m glad you got the message. Happy birthday again ♥️

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  45. itsiris May 1, 2020 at 12:45 pm

    Happy birthday Osas, you don’t know how much you have inspired me and you keep inspiring me.
    I hope this new year you have entered will be better than the past ones.

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  46. Nengi May 1, 2020 at 2:30 pm

    Aww osas so proud of you sorry for those times..happy beautiful birthday love more to come

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  47. Abidemii May 1, 2020 at 3:09 pm

    Happy birthday queen osas….wishing you a long life and prosperity❤

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  48. Anjorin Molayo May 1, 2020 at 4:27 pm

    Happy Birthday King ❤️❤️. Missed this so much

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  49. Dhinma May 1, 2020 at 10:13 pm

    Talking about disappointments and acting like you’re happy online got me,well because I’m currently in that area of my life where sad songs suddenly sound like the best,well except songs by Lauren diagle..errr your story has spoken to me babe,and I look forward to hearing more..stay strong,I’m genuinely a fan.. you’ll be fine.. Happy birthday babes

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  50. SWEETAFROGIRL May 1, 2020 at 10:22 pm

    Happy Birthday Osas!!! My roast modem! I love you forever. Stay strong ❤

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  51. Gbemss May 2, 2020 at 12:38 am

    Happy birthday Osas dear♥️ Thank you for You. ♥️

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  52. Abby May 2, 2020 at 6:44 am

    Happy birthday osas

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  53. Mayordmx May 5, 2020 at 3:19 pm

    I can totally relate with what you are saying osas it’s not easy being the first born especially with a lot of responsibilities being placed on and you have your parents constantly reminding you of being a role model to your juniours ones. Osas i really envy am 25 and also the first and am still leaving with my parents honestly it’s so frustrating sometimes i wish i could just completely summon the courage and confidence you had to also leave home and start my own life i have so much plans goals and dreams that are unfulfilled just because am still staying in my comfort zone honestly it’s really frustrating.

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  54. Rejoice May 13, 2020 at 2:44 pm

    Osas…Damn girl, you’re truly a king. See how teary I got reading every word of this post. I’ll be 22 also by June, next month. These last months have been really sad for me too; I’ve even contemplated suicide.
    If not for anything else, know that you inspire me a lot. Very much. I am thankful for you. Happy new age.

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