I’m Just Not Worthy 😭😭

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Few days ago, I wasn’t so sure I wanted to even see this day or be this twenty. I had it a long time coming but I never found myself ready enough as this day drew closer.

I have been a teenager for as long as I can remember, so long that I was beginning to doubt that my age still ended with ‘teen’. I already was becoming a stake holder in the teens church.

So twenty? I actually thought in my head that I would be shedding this skin and growing a new one since I am at the age where I can beat my chest proudly and say that I am two decades old, I also really felt that my stomach would be flat and my hair would be longer and I would have gained all the figure 8 I’ve been praying for but no. You should see me now, I’m just round and short and hot in a joggers and a shirt I stole from one of the loves of my life.

But if there’s one thing I know that’s for sure, it’s the fact that I HAVE GROWN. I know they say we shouldn’t question God but just this one time, I really want to know why God has found me worthy over the years to overlook my excesses and still call me His own because I didn’t even accept myself for me.

For the first time in a very long time, I accept my real age without any altercation because like every other day, I get hit with the realization that God is making me older for a reason.

I’m overwhelmed by the love being shown, I cannot explain how so many people know me neither can I explain how I’m still sane with the way my phones are hanging but what I can explain is how grateful I am.

Dear God, I’ll never disappoint you because you’ve never disappointed me. If I get to the point in my life where I feel like I’m too big to still be under your control, remind me that I’m still being elevated from nothingness to where you want me to be. If I ever feel like I don’t need you anymore, do like you always do to me, gist with me And make me understand that without you, there would be no me. Also, thank you for making me meet all these cool people around me.

Dear people that believe in me, I will never insult you by letting you down. It will be stupid on my end to ever make attempts to sideline you. If in any case, my shoulders begin to rise because of the overwhelming effect of the attention around be, please be patient with me and draw me back with love. I’m extremely fragile.

Dear people that started with me, if I ever attempt to raise my nose at you, if I ever attempt to degrade my journey. Forgive my childishness, Na small pikin dey worry me.

Dear squad, thank you for being there for me. Thank you for listening to my rants and my screams, thank you for letting me touch y’alls butts. If I ever pass by without touching your butt, call me back and present those sexy asses to me.

Dear everyone, we will blow.Happy birthday to me and my bothy.

Pictures shot by @yusufshotme

Styled by @stylesenami

Hair by @ariyikhair

Makeup by @tht_glam

Cakes by @kennyteecakes

58 COMMENTS

  1. The only person who is always concerned about her hips in a picture 😁… Happy birthday dear, we can’t love you less

  2. This is my very first time here,and I really like this,Cant even wait to be 20 any longer..Happy birthday❤❤

  3. Babe!!! We have somethings in common, i would be 20 on Sunday, i finished from University of Lagos last year. I have an infant blog… but your have a great blog and i enjoyed every bit of posts on your IG page…

  4. Babe!!! We have somethings in common, i would be 20 on Sunday, i finished from University of Lagos last year. I have an infant blog… but you have a great blog and i enjoyed every bit of posts on your IG page…

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